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June 06, 2005

Overwhelmed and Overworked

I took Friday off from work in hopes of getting my menu project and my two
research papers done. The menu project so turned into more than I ever dreamed
it would and took all day Friday, all day Saturday and most of Sunday. Part of
my OCD and perfectionism is that once I get started on making something
organized, I cant stop. This project, for what I saw most people barely did and
most missed half of class printing it out down the hall in the lab, mine was the
most elaborate thing I have done since... hell, I dont know when. One of my
first projects after school is out is to set up a webpage where I can upload
documents, and not just pictures. As soon as I get it up I will share the link
with all of you so that you can see the menu I turned in this evening. If all
else fails, I will take a picture of it when I get it back next Monday night and
post that. Yesterday, I had the unfortunate experience of missing my cousin's,
Officer B, wedding shower. I have been told it was beautiful and amazing and
that I was missed. Although that is comforting, they will never know how much I
missed being there. I wouldn't have made it through last night without a couple
of friends online and on the phone talking me thru my mental breakdown. I'm a
firm believer in the benefits of a good cry. I try to have one at least once a
month. Well, at that pace I'm already cried out till September or October. Its
10:56 pm on Monday night. My menu management class is basically over and I have
enough points in there to not even take the final and still make an A.
Especially if my bigger than life menu project earns the grade it deserves. So
why am I still having a breakdown? Well I have two 5 page research papers due
between now and 5:30 Thursday night, with work from 7:30 - 4:30 and class from
5:30 - 10:30 each night. I spent $35 and some odd cents on that menu project
that I didn't have. My DVR, which never actually worked (as in recording shows)
in the first place but at least let me see the cable channels, has died and
Comcast wont come to fix it until this coming Saturday. About two weeks ago I
quit listening to the radio station I had been hooked on since I moved here
because they wouldn't quit playing Eric Clapton songs. Then I switched over to
96.7 The Twister and the first weekend I listened to them they played two songs
about every 40 minutes... and I just about wanted to scream... "Fast Cars and
Freedom" by Rascal Flatts and "I'm Playing Chicken with Train Train Train
Chicken with the Train uh huh uh uh huh" by Cowboy Troy. So now not only am I
sick of both my radio stations, I cant watch tv.. and trying to do homework with
no noise just doesn't work. I guess I will post this now and get to work. I
needed air some of my thoughts and get them out of my head. Its like my brain is
about 10,000 miles overdue for the 3,000 mile oil change and everything up there
is starting to wear out and sparks are flying when I try to think of something.
By the time next Friday gets here there wont be any need for an oil "change"
cause it will all be gone and will just have to spend the next 3 1/2 weeks
slowly pouring in about 7 or 8 quarts of brain oil per night. In my world, brain
oil = sleep.

Posted by FutureFoodTVStar at June 6, 2005 10:42 PM

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