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May 11, 2005

Burning the Candle at Both Ends

Well... it only took till May but I finally drove myself sick.

I went to the doctor at CareNow Monday evening after work. The doctor concluded that I had a sinus infection and gave me 3 prescriptions. I went home, went to Walgreens and had those 3 prescriptions plus 2 of the 3 that the neurologist had given me. I also bought a gallon of gatorade and a gallon of apple juice. $136.45 later I came home, took all the medicines, slathered myself in Vicks and went to sleep. Here it is Wednesday afternoon and I haven't done much besides walk between the bed, the couch and the bathroom. Luckily, I can reach my computer from the couch.

I woke up feeling ok this morning, not feeling too bad at all. But then I quickly came to the realization that the physical location of my desk at work versus the physical location of the bathrooms, made for an unpleasant thought. The medicine I am taking is supposed to "make my coughs more productive," which means close proximity is a must. I know this is probably TMI, but, that is what is going on.

I am hoping to go to work tomorrow. I hadn't missed but one day of work since I moved here, and then I start working at "TheLiquorDistributor" and the 2nd week I was there I had a reaction to the mold and mildew from the leak in my apartment, and then the 4th week I am there I get a sinus infection. I am so disappointed. I am considering taking a semester off from school to just work and catch up on bills.

Being without fulltime employment for 4 1/2 months really drained me, my parents, and my mental stability. Not being able to answer the phone in my own apartment, wondering how I'm going to pay bills, etc., has become an unwelcome way of life. I had considered declaring bankruptcy, but if I do that then I would have just wasted the past 4 months in culinary school when they turn me down for student loans come the next school "loan-year" in October.

I keep telling myself maybe next month will be better, or next month. I think I am beginning to see a light at the end of the tunnel, but life until then is going to be tough. I don't want to quit working at Panera Bread, but I need my weekends to catch up on school work, to do meanial chores around the apartment (like laundry), and I just need some time to pretend like I'm human and have a life.

I have 5 1/2 weeks left of this school quarter and I have another class that starts tomorrow. Its an online class and expects us to log on and contribute at least 5 days a week. After June 18th I will have 3 1/2 weeks off from school, and it will hopefully be a time for me to re-evaluate my priorities. Whether I need to take one quarter off from school, whether I want to try to move out of my apartment before my lease is up, and whether or not I can continue to go to school fulltime and work a full time & a part time job.

Advise? Anyone?

Posted by FutureFoodTVStar at May 11, 2005 03:23 PM

Comments


Hey hon, get some rest! I know this is tough, but you are going to make it
through and find happiness when it is over. I love you and am here to talk with
anytime!

Posted by: Karagape at May 11, 2005 09:15 PM


Hmmm suggestions.. suffer through the apartment situation for now. When your
lease nears ending, look for another place. I don't reccomend quitting school,
because it is hard to go back and let go of the extra $$$ you are making. Once
you are done with that part time, temporary job, you'll probably feel better.
Try your best to budget with the $$ you have. I had to go for a while with no
cable or internet (eeekkk!! I know its unimaginable!) and just use bunny ears
and snail mail. (It was actually pretty fun!)
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Posted by: Karagape at May 11, 2005 09:20 PM